Monday, March 19, 2012

A First Letter for my Daughter

Dear S

I love you more than I could never knew my heart could love anyone ! yes I keep telling your father, how much I love him, well that’s because he is worse than you in expressing his love for me. He usually has a habit of getting me food in the bed, putting away a cup in the sink or just sit next to me and watch TV, pretty much the perfect way to make me realize that he loves me a lot.

But with you darling its different, even before I start telling you how much I love you, you look at me with those big bright round eyes and right there, I become an emotional snowball. And then when you open your mouth wide and give me that toothless smile with the gurgle…I realize you are the best in our family when it comes to expressing love.

Every morning when you wake up with two tired snoring parent on each side, you stay quiet, happy to play with your hands and feet, busy cooing at the big watch on the bedroom wall and basically letting those two sleepy heads get an extra half an hour of sleep. It surprises me that Ma and Baba keep yawning and lazing around when they wake up but, the minute you open your eyes and see us, its always always a big wide smile and those legs throwing in the air. There is so much we have to learn from you dear daughter, about never ever complaining about people whom you love.

I look at you and wonder when you grew up so big to be able to sit up completely on your own, always reaching for new things to play with, to explore. Always looking at bright colors, looking out for sudden noise and sounds that come your way, always analyzing a new face and then taking a decision if its safe to go or stay put in Dadus arms . And Ma Baba are so tired of new projects, facing new challenges at work, sitting up and riving for so long and then guilty of sometimes being too tired to play with you.

Perhaps the biggest fear which I have in my heart id when I step out to office everyday, till about a month back you used to smile and look at me as I walked down the stairs, but off late those eyes get all round and wide and makes my heart break. We can still manage to run and land a kiss on your cheek and by the time you realize what just happened, I run away. Why ? Because Ma and Baba are afraid that you will put your hands out, wanting to be taken by us, and we will be in a hurry to rush to work. Does that change anything when you see us in the evening..No. You are the happiest and most excited little girl in your rocker when you see us in the evening. The entire day your Dadu Dida tell us you have been the most amazing child ever, not troubling anyone, not fussing while eating, sleeping on time, laughing and rolling on the bed with Didu  and sitting and watching cricket with Dadu.

And did I tell you that on some evenings Ma and Baba come home with a back ache or a migraine, we take a medicine and catch a quick nap. But you don’t trouble us, rather you also catch a quick nap to wake p fresh and play with us, when we wake up. When Ma has a stomach ache she is grumbling and cribbing all day to Baba. But you are a brave brave little girl, who takes her shots and does not cry for more than 10 seconds, you just need Ma’s arms and you are back to being the chirpy little girl. We have so much to learn from you S and this I want you know because you are the best part of Ma Baba.

Last but not the least, please be this cheerful happy healthy and friendly little girl always, because even though Ma Baba go to work come back home late we want to gather the best for you as you grow up.i know we cant get you the stars but we will always make you feel on top of the world. You Baba works so hard so you and I have the perfect little life in our home. Ma goes to work so she can always pamper you a little more and bribe you a little more than Baba. Someday when we both are ridden with guilt for not being able to spend time with you, promise us you will still smile and touch our cheeks like you do now.

We love you more than we could ever think we could, and we will leave no stone unturned to make you smile , to fulfill all your drams, try and give you a beautiful life. And We know God has worked His plans for the three of us and we will all walk hand in hand !


nil said...

A 'first' letter means there are obviously many more coming, and we can't wait for them enough :)
Junior phokla daat pinkpatiyala princess suddenly looks grown up! She was so puchka last time I checked on fb!

May you three stay blessed, and yes, god has the best plans for you. And our prayers are always going to be a reminder to that :)
much much muuuuch love and hugs and a WHOLE LOT of pampers to the little one <333

Sunakshi said...

someday she'll read this and feel proud to become on of you.
stay blessed :)

Lady Whispers said...

I want to read many more such letters from you my pathaka :D

She is growing up so fast and soooo very smart I wanna meet her up right now :)

And she has to be sensitive after all she is the baby of two very loving people :)

May God brings loads and loads of happiness always...and no guilt ever because I know i trying to get her everything you will manage to shower all love on her too and that is what our darling demands :)

Soooo many loves and kisses to this gorgeous lady and her puchka :)

P.S.When I was reading this , mom came and saw her pic and she was like God bless what a healthy kid ...she will go very big :)

sandhyaa said...

:( :( beautiful just beautiful...
you write and i cry !
and and S is little angle devil ! God bless !

Priyanka Kamath said...

This, Sulagna made me cry..
My mother never wrote me letters when I was a month, 6 months or a year old so I could read them now and realise how much she loves me even when we've had difference of opinion..
However, after reading this, I realise just exactly how my mum must have felt holding me in her arms when I was of S's age:)
And even though mothering seems to be a task at the age where I am right now, this somehow gets me excited to have cute little babies a couple of years down the line:)
This is such an heart melting letter:)
Ahh, the assertive flamboyance that your angelic baby carries is so natural:)
Good luck for a beautiful, beautiful life :)

Varsha Vipins said...

I was an emotional mess already and this post from you made me cry..Its everything I could write for aamy :)

Shilpik said...

I am so touched by reading this sweet "letter" for the sweet sweet baby doll. Really babies complete our world. Without them our life has no meaning. I am sure "our" doll will understand each and every single word her "MoM" has written for her... Bless U!!!

Anonymous said... looks just like a letter I would write to my daughter (she's 8 months). Guess all moms think alike.

Pesto Sauce said...

Must say your angel is so lucky to have you as her mother

There are many females who are pretty but very few as good-hearted as you

Anupama K. Mazumder said...

Such a cute little baby... and what a post this is.. to read it many years later will bring tears of joy tothe eyes!!!

Btw, I tagged you. Please take it:

Bullu said...

What a beautiful post!!

Asmita said...

What a beautiful post!

KayEm said...

Lovely post. Enjoyed reading about the things your baby does and the obvious joy it all gives you both.

Emreen said...

Wow ! Sulagna,,, This is a wonderful letter... !! Am sure S is gonna treasure these ... !!
Hugs and love to S'...

Puneet Kaur said...

When she grows up and reads it some day, she will love you even more! God bless you and her :)

maha said...

heart touching letter...beautifully presented.....

Vivek said...

Nice one,
A Lady with a gem of a heart ..only speaks this beautiful way..blessed are those who are around you :).
Baby already expressing her love by attracting you toward her via trivial little little naughty ways she can :)

Felt nice after reading.

kankana said...

Awww that is so sweet :) And your kid is absolutely adorable Sulagna!

♥ Golden Pink ♥ said...

wow, what a bful and lucky child.
My mishti Doi :P
now hope you know who's here :)

your posts are the only ones in the blogville which touch my heart !
eventhough i don't know what does it mean being a parent but your words give me goosebumps.

Nikita said...

Beautiful ! You're a gem of a person and S is very lucky to have a mum like you
your posts makes me feel good in an instant,you're a bag full of optimism :) hugs

Jack said...


May God bless you all with happiness always. Sweet emotions told so well.

Take care

Haddock said...

A touching one.
Preserve it and one day she will read it.

Anwesa said...

A lovely letter and a lovelier baby. Stay blessed !

Tanvi said...

So beautiful!!! You ought to be the best mother ever!!! :)

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Bubblegum.... said...

Super duper cute!!! First time reader!!! :)

CB said...

Little S is shooo cute! I can totallu understand why it's so difficult for you guys to leave her for the day. Someday, she's gonna read this and love you infinitely more that she did before.

Stay blessed!

Giancarlo said...

un felice week end per Te....ciao

Ash said...

Aw :) adorable!

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