A First Letter for my Daughter

Dear S

I love you more than I could never knew my heart could love anyone ! yes I keep telling your father, how much I love him, well that’s because he is worse than you in expressing his love for me. He usually has a habit of getting me food in the bed, putting away a cup in the sink or just sit next to me and watch TV, pretty much the perfect way to make me realize that he loves me a lot.

But with you darling its different, even before I start telling you how much I love you, you look at me with those big bright round eyes and right there, I become an emotional snowball. And then when you open your mouth wide and give me that toothless smile with the gurgle…I realize you are the best in our family when it comes to expressing love.

Every morning when you wake up with two tired snoring parent on each side, you stay quiet, happy to play with your hands and feet, busy cooing at the big watch on the bedroom wall and basically letting those two sleepy heads get an extra half an hour of sleep. It surprises me that Ma and Baba keep yawning and lazing around when they wake up but, the minute you open your eyes and see us, its always always a big wide smile and those legs throwing in the air. There is so much we have to learn from you dear daughter, about never ever complaining about people whom you love.

I look at you and wonder when you grew up so big to be able to sit up completely on your own, always reaching for new things to play with, to explore. Always looking at bright colors, looking out for sudden noise and sounds that come your way, always analyzing a new face and then taking a decision if its safe to go or stay put in Dadus arms . And Ma Baba are so tired of new projects, facing new challenges at work, sitting up and riving for so long and then guilty of sometimes being too tired to play with you.

Perhaps the biggest fear which I have in my heart id when I step out to office everyday, till about a month back you used to smile and look at me as I walked down the stairs, but off late those eyes get all round and wide and makes my heart break. We can still manage to run and land a kiss on your cheek and by the time you realize what just happened, I run away. Why ? Because Ma and Baba are afraid that you will put your hands out, wanting to be taken by us, and we will be in a hurry to rush to work. Does that change anything when you see us in the evening..No. You are the happiest and most excited little girl in your rocker when you see us in the evening. The entire day your Dadu Dida tell us you have been the most amazing child ever, not troubling anyone, not fussing while eating, sleeping on time, laughing and rolling on the bed with Didu  and sitting and watching cricket with Dadu.

And did I tell you that on some evenings Ma and Baba come home with a back ache or a migraine, we take a medicine and catch a quick nap. But you don’t trouble us, rather you also catch a quick nap to wake p fresh and play with us, when we wake up. When Ma has a stomach ache she is grumbling and cribbing all day to Baba. But you are a brave brave little girl, who takes her shots and does not cry for more than 10 seconds, you just need Ma’s arms and you are back to being the chirpy little girl. We have so much to learn from you S and this I want you know because you are the best part of Ma Baba.

Last but not the least, please be this cheerful happy healthy and friendly little girl always, because even though Ma Baba go to work come back home late we want to gather the best for you as you grow up.i know we cant get you the stars but we will always make you feel on top of the world. You Baba works so hard so you and I have the perfect little life in our home. Ma goes to work so she can always pamper you a little more and bribe you a little more than Baba. Someday when we both are ridden with guilt for not being able to spend time with you, promise us you will still smile and touch our cheeks like you do now.

We love you more than we could ever think we could, and we will leave no stone unturned to make you smile , to fulfill all your drams, try and give you a beautiful life. And We know God has worked His plans for the three of us and we will all walk hand in hand !