Thursday, May 27, 2010

To my angel..


Its been a year since you left us..you came in our lives and it changed, for those three months we had with you, it was beautiful. I loved reading books about you, i noticed every day changes in you. I even dint complain about the sickness and lost desire to eat.


He used to come home early just so he could sit next to us, i wrote him messages, saying "we" want him to come him early. We spoke if you were a girl or a boy and he knew you would be soon playing football with baba in the house. we wanted to name you different and special.

i still remember how surprised our parents were when we broke the news over the phone and how elated we both were. This was something we were not expecting, but when you came, we were the happiest.

Not a day goes i dont think about you, not a day goes i dont say"he would have been 4 months today" and not a day goes, i dont ask God, why?

And today after a year of loosing you, i know you had come to make us stronger, have our faith in Him grow deeper and made us beleive, that God has his plans for all of us.

And no matter how happy we are, we will always miss you.


45 comments:

The Bald Guy said...

One of those few times in life when I do not know what to say Sulagna. I'm sorry. God bless you.

ANWESA said...

Those moments will be back. And will bring you infinite happiness for the whole of your lives. Amen !

Queenmatrai said...

I'm sorry for your loss.

Things like this only make us stronger in the long term.

Manjari Singh said...

ya, those moments will b back, I will be maasi soon.. T care

Nu said...

I understand !

Disguise said...

I am so sorry. :(
I know there's nothing I can say that'll make it better, so *hug*

Scribbling Girl said...

AWWW...such things makes me question God often...but then i think maybe he had some plans and such things were suppose to be in those plans...i am sure such experience made u stronger and so filled with love that when another of such happiness comes...that little angel will be overwhelmed that u borned him/her :)
God bless you always

Maria said...

Im sorry...just cant write anything except...Hold on and have faith. There is a plan for each one of us.

K-ay said...

He does have a plan.
I promise you he does.
And you will wake up to a higher purpose one of these days.
I'm proud of your strength and your faith and I promise you, you will be blessed with another angel sooner or later.
I will pray for you :)

Banupriya said...

A big warm and tight hug to u Sulagna Di!!! This too shall definitely pass and you will be soon and very soon blessed with a little angel.....

Pesto Sauce said...

Oh Lord! From where do you get the strength to overcome grief and be strong and happy again! I could never imagine you have been through the deepest of pains and are so ever happy

May God bless both of you and give you all happiness

suruchi said...

Hi Su,
Would it make things any easier to bear if I told you I can relate completely to how you feel?

Please remain strong, hopeful and as full of life as you are...
And the angel is just there...waiting for the right time to make her presence felt again:-)

Love you,
Hugsssssssss
Take care:-)

littlemissjuicy said...

Here's a big hug to you.
Although I haven't ever been a mother, I can only imagine how you would have gone through it.
It makes me proud of you that you and G both got through it. What God sent as a symbol of love, and happiness, shouldn't be transformed into a symbol of grievance, or loss, even if it goes away from us.

Ria said...

This post left me without words....i m sure those days will come back again. May god bless you dear!!

Mrs. Adventure said...

Sorry to hear about this girl, just know your baby is in a better place.

Readers Dais said...

Dear Sulagna,

When god gives us tears he also makes sure we have the courage and a loving hand beside to wipe those tears too.....
Let those loving hands wipe off the tears giving a clear vision of hope....a blessing....
not far away...
with prayers...

aritra the daydreamer said...

its jst bolt frm the blue...sry to hear about it sulagna di...
Hope god gifts u with some good news soon.

Varsha Vipins said...

Aww Su..A big hug to you baby..!

Varsha Vipins said...

Aww Su..A big hug to you baby..!

SG said...

I am very sorry. I will pray God to give both of you strength and happiness.

Sid said...

Hey really sorry 2 hear abt this... dont kno wat else 2 say.. God bless you

Mads... said...

your loss is sumthing beyond ne expression..rlly sorry..God bless ya..God bless him..n ya God has his plans for all of us..so jus keep waiting..u'll gt lifelong happiness soon..!!!

Crazy Diamond said...

Sula...i'm shocked..really..even I could never imagine that YOU have been through such a hard time in life! you are an inspiration... so cheerful..so loving..so full of life! you give me strength and belief. i love you and in tears. i'm praying that you and G get every happiness in life baby! you deserve everything

damn. one of those moments when you just don't know what to say or think.

always stay as strong and loving .. always be the way you are.. you are one amazing person.

Daipayan Banerjee said...

Donno wht to say...at a complete loss of words...

All I knw is Suprabhat & U wud be one of the MOST WONDERFUL PARENTS EVER...n be prepared...u wud hv to think of which shade do u wanna call the NEW COLOUR in ur life :) ...Sooooonnn... n It'll be Pink..Black & .........


Luv,
Daipayan Banerjee
http://randomstrokez.blogspot.com

Freelancer said...

i dunno what to say...you are right. God has his plans for everyone at the right time. We are no one to question him.

AM sorry for your loss but am equally elated to see you fight back. ANYTHING THAT DOESNT KILL US, MAKES US STRONGER

nil said...

Your existance is proof from Him up there that all souls come into earth with a time meant to be. Your existance on earth proves the richness and unconditional love a heart can hold.
You existence on earth is a prove to angels.
And very soon your angel will come,too. And his existence and our smiles will tell you how proud we are of you and G da's courage, and power of the heart to smile and say you miss him.
All of it will find your way,
you both are nothing lesser than angels on the face of the earth.
I love you both :)
Hugs.

RepublicOfChic said...

God bless you, Sulagna.

♫ Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ♫ ayu ♫ Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ♫ said...

aw..its really sad..to lose that special one >.<

RE:@sulagna: haha..yeah..im wondering if im gonna be an effective :p

Persis Shah said...

I'm so sorry for your loss.

Just passing by your blog and i LOVE your writing. please come drop by mine when you have some time.

Persis.

www.onestylemile.blogspot.com

Shas said...

Can feel the pain. Sorry for the loss. She/he will be back soon. Have faith and God bless u.

Raj said...

make a lot of babies. lots.

comfortablynam said...

I can't even put into words how sorry I am..But can say I understand the pain you are going through..

Nothing can take away the loss or the thoughts..but I am sure, soon there will be someone who will move the sorrow out of your heart and fill it with pure warm love.

Loads of wishes and love..

sulagna ™ said...

i was really not sure about writing this, because this has been an extremely close and hushed,aprt of my life, i have put up abvery brave front over the last one year, but this day i broke and knew i had to write down about it...thank you all so much that you have all thought of me and wished me happiness..it means a lot and i know miracles happen...biggest miracle is people whom i have not ever met or spoken , have given me my smile back today while people whom i counted on, dint.

thank you guys...you make me beleive that there is a lot of good, a lot of good around us.

thank you all of you...thank you

Wicked Witch of the West said...

So sorry to hear of your pain. And hoping that very soon you will know the happiness that will make it recede to the background. You won't ever forget, but it will certainly be a lot better. Hugs to you. And very glad you shared, I am sure it will help a lot of people to know they are not alone, and hopefully you too by the expression of it.

mohit said...

glad uve got a place to vent...

Please dnt be sad... loss is a part of life...even if its cruel.

tc..really

♦ Crazy Diamond ♦ said...

we all feel good that you trusted us and shared this with us..

*giant hug*

i feel like playing some crazy bollywood music and pulling you on the floor (but knowing the kind of fun person you are, i wont need to pull you) and dance! dance!

KParthasarathi said...

There is a purpose in all things which we can never understand.Trust God and get going with life

haathi said...

theres really nothing i can say t make this feel better. so.. hug.

everything happens in its time, and for a reason. so keep the faith, your time will come..

Jack said...

Sulagna,

This has saddened me a lot. May God be kind and bless you with what you wish.

Take care

Thousif Raza said...

i am so sorry, i'm late here... xams the isliye nahi aa paya... but sulgana didi... i really dint knew abt this part of your life.... i just wanna say, as you said... god has better plans for you, and they will be the most happiest of times when you will live in those moments....

i am so tragic for your loss, cause i know how it is to lose your loved one.... but bad times come just to remind us that there are good times too...

i wish you and jiju alll the luck and happiness in the world, may everything in you life be as you have imagined... may everything turn out as only smiles and more smiles.... let every moment be the journey of a life time....


i'm proud of you didi.... very proud :)... for your strength, for your love....for your courage... Everything :)


take care and keep writing......

Anonymous said...

Here is what God thought:

"I am sending a beatiful creation of mine to Sulagna. Oh no, wait! I have an even better creation for you Sulagna, because I'm your father and I want my child to have the best of the best! But Sulagna dear, have patience and I will send you the most precious gift to you very very soon."

Joyful days will be back!

High on Butterflies said...

Hey, I'm new to your blog. All I want to say is - If God brings you to it, he'll bring you through it! :)

Hoping to read more from you :)

Gob bless you both in every way!!

-honeybun

M. M. said...

That's such a touchy, heartbreaking post )':

Sunakshi said...

Big bear hug for you sweetheart,

you'll be da best moma ever :)

vivek said...

Oh ..Thats sad .. the loss of someone close to you ..I can relate to myself..and feel ..

But the good thing is that we are blessed with the memories ..which are there to live with us always..in those memories they are still alive present ..just feels like sitting next to you and smiling ...their presence is still ...felt ..
So just always try to be happy .as they always wanted..us to be ...

Keep the smile handy ..will surely make you feel their presence is just ..round next to u ..

I'm very happy to see, you shared this very close to heart with us ..

Have a gr8 Week ahead ....

keep smiling ..always

Take care

 
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